Today I did something I have always wanted to do, except I never had the guts to get it done. I got my nose pierced! It seems so small and trivial to me now, and I think that I was able to do it because my perspectives have changed in the past few years. I don't know what the big deal about it was before. I don't really know what was holding me back. I just know that I have always wanted a piercing, and I have never gotten one. Last weekend, I decided that I was just going to go for it, so I scheduled an appointment, and am now sporting a lovely piece of jewelry on my nose. I absolutely adore it! I don't know why I had to wait until I was 29 to do it! Well, maybe I have an idea why. I have never felt comfortable in my own skin. I have always been heavier than most of my friends, and though I never lacked attention from the opposite sex because I was particularly well endowed, I never quite felt right. Because of this, I think I haven't ever really wanted to draw attention to my physical appearance.
I have always liked piercings and tattoos, or the idea of them, but never quite felt like I could do it. In the past few years, I have learned that if there is something in life that I want, I need to just go for it (that is assuming of course that they are not harmful or inappropriate)! I use the piercing as an example, but it can apply to much bigger things. Life experiences are not closed to me just because I am a mother of two, a wife, and because I will soon be entering my thirties. In fact, I think that in light of all this, I am beginning to realize just how one track I used to be, and I am able and willing to expand my consciousness. Life is not comprised of the things that immediately occupy my space, and just because I feel uncomfortable or awkward, I should not be deterred from doing the things I would like to do.
I don't claim to be a whole other person just because I am doing different things, but losing so much weight has given me a freedom inside that I haven't felt for a long, long time. I am so proud of how far I have come, and I truly feel comfortable in my skin. I feel attractive and sexy even though parts of my body don't look the way they used to in my younger years. I feel like it's okay to draw attention to myself, it's okay to dress in ways that accentuate my body, and it's okay to want to be seen. And I do...want to be seen. I think that might be why I decided to go for the piercing. I don't feel the need to hide myself any more, and so why not accessorize? (Next on my list are two tattoos...then who knows?!)
My point is this: if there is something in life that you want do to, why haven't you done it? What is stopping you? Are you like I was, unwilling to draw attention to yourself because you are ashamed of your body? Are you scared because new things come with a great deal of uncertainty? Are you afraid of failure? Whatever it is, I encourage you to seize the day, whether it be losing that extra fifty pounds you've been carrying or taking a leap and changing careers.
Why not just go for it?
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